ok, so you might not understand this so if you don't know me very well you can read this if you want but you won't understand. i just needed to get this down for me...

tonite was.....no words to describe....in miss k's class we picked a song to dance to(individually) and choreographed or improved some of the songg. so yeah because of my situation i chose  the song "one moment more" by mindy smith. not only is that song inspiring but it hits me. so...yeah i walked out to the middle of the room and i just couldn't hold it together...whatever that's gonna happen. but then when i started, i just couldn't stop, i needed it soo bad and i all the bad negative feelings were just gone....like that....i finished when i felt it was neccessary and i turned to everyone that was looking at me. i saw at least 4 people crying and then it was impossible to keep it all in, so i started sobbing....yeah literally heaving in air and it felt like i couldn't breathe. wow, that's it, it's over now, but no i kept sobbing i tried to reign it in but it was noo use. I needed this soooooo badly and it felt sooooo good to just be whatever and not have to please someone. everyone came up to me then and hugged me, which was great guys thanx, and we talked some and whatever. you probably are soo confused but whatever cuz i just needed to get it down somewhere. it felt amazing and i'm soo glad...no that doesn't even cover it, but hopefully you get the idea. it's awefull to keep things in and tonite was sooo helpfull...again doesn't even cover it, and to get it down, i love you Mitch...